Night of December 1,2007, the weather of Zhengzhou Zhou change , in sky, float on gloomy and cold light rain, she goes to me approximately in daybreak road a coffee hall , narrates her to me, ask to send manuscript in the new on January 9 this day of one year and especially with the feelings course of male friend A Lang of 4 years, to time, she will buy 50 copies of newspaper as birthday gift, give him, the most close person that also gives self side shares together with her, is this kind of to free rear happiness.
When asking and being what to send so special birthday gift, she says that in male friend life, what also does not be short of , though, the feelings between them is sincere , but is violation social morals after all, between them eventually, it is also for self to have finished this feelings , , is for household and is for the biggest comfort of around kinsfolk. Each person can make a mistake , it is fearful that person has commited mistake, key is to find correct way correction mistake. Thinking it over can only most express own blessing and regard with this kind of way , is also unique , hope that all can return on normal life orbit as soon as possible to come.
Spread
When meeting , perhaps to express her, it is for the finish of this feelings , perhaps is to kiss the friend straight white of her good friend vindication personality, in interview, she calls a good friend specially , makes entire interview campaign just as being the sweet environment in coffee hall , has not been away from and had no insulation.
Say that this male friend reveals the gentle
I and he just have got feelings for a long time , but have long been the child who meets him for the first time as same family seemingly with his household, I am a mother nearly, kid has no any distance with me. When I fall ill the time of resting at home, he has been the mother of some teacher of surface for morning like me at seven o'clock eat breakfast make , send with lunch-box to me, in my mind, home of old man is my mother.
" his wife? " see that she mentions his household only sweetly, do not mention throughout this crucial figure and that cannot evade , I have to straight speech mentions. " do not like me certainly. " turn this subject suddenly, return expression just now the little bonus that rises , and is melancholy and confused.
In my mind, she is not a good wife and good mother , is to defend son if selecting evening, or arriving , it is new and dense to go to the words of a brand department, she is surely to select the latter , may imagine more for husband. But she is wife after all, their two persons have lived together for 20 years , have no love , only kiss feelings, together with him, it is a man with especially kind nature , always considers for others more, is so impossible to lay aside old old woman no matter, this I am very sober, also understand very much, so, I have never made things difficult for him , never also talk about marriage theory in front of him to marry , ask what name to divide , obey its nature only.
" that you have not felt that self is a third
" I understand certainly, may I control do not live self, sometimes, can also deeply repent for the identity of own third party, so final we so as part finish , it should be also a kind of necessity. " little bonus says.
Because
In October 2003, I and A Lang are acquainted , because work to concern , the opportunity of having dealings is very many, as soon as coming , 2 has become friend , but is the friend of general meaning very only in a long time. Begin me do not know him for me good impression, but he likes the other friends that invite courtyard to have meal together, does not forget every time to shout to go up me. When having lunch together, he likes to clip vegetable to me very much , shows a kind of enthusiasm and consideration.
Now, I have not also touched for him, as soon as coming to know about he , it has to be few , 2 comes he has married to give birth to son , there is a complete family. In more and more association, I feeling goes to him is careful, for example have meal , the first meal always lets be then just that self eats to me first, on November 30,2005 when I pass birthday, in a hotel, it is the first time that I and his son meet , I have no Italian noodles that had been eaten , it has been eaten very naturally that he pawns the surface of son, then, again let me receive the telephone that his wife hits with initiative. Same is in this year, one day in the evening, I fall ill to have a fever. Along with these picture the close association as household, I have accepted him , also begin to know him conscientiously.
A Lang and old old woman have known in 18 years old, at that time, his family is very poor, the family condition of the bride's side is better, the uncle of the bride's side has managed one to drive school , has managed a driving certificate for it, since then, he begins and turns to have dealings , until manage own vehicle trip, operation takes own secondhand vehicle business. Because his natural gift is bright, it is diligent to again keep forging ahead , when person is sincere, so though, cultural degree is not high , business has got improvement very quickly.
" the relation with old old woman, he more bring the composition of thanks inside, though side kiss friend good friend do not value her character, but he is a man who has sense of responsibility , let him throw away the knot son of first wife , is foundation does do not arrive. Certainly, this is also modern civilized social basic morals requirement. It can only become a third party that I go among their life, how to say that is inglorious matter. " little bonus thinks soberly.
Decision
In October 2006, the wife of A Lang calls with initiative to me , asks to meet. She asks me to leave him with initiative , does not break their calm family life. Have gone through so long time not normal feelings life, I have also felt that additionally, a woman returns to a ordinary woman as suffering and the pain of genuine wife, I have not refused her request.
I solicit his opinion , have seen that he is in a dilemma to again grudge Appearance I, I do not be willing to let him lined, again do not know between our two persons how to is good, so active to have put forward to part. Actually now, I have been pregnant for some months, it is rear that parents kiss to know , disagree that my this one is decided , and as soon as I remember his pain, get up firmly.
Part with him after, when the Christmas of same year, I have again known a boy, between for escape of each other pain, fear returns arrive in the past like, so our lightning land have closed marriage, on February 14,2007, take finish marriage certificate in Valentine's Day. Have no marriage yarn , have no feast , have not kissed the blessing of friend good friend , have not even arranged household, we have gone when is a. In that night, it is many that I drink , call with initiative to him , claim that self has married , is then cry. Tell him finally in treat as self life hurriedly transient guest, everything is forgotten. Gradually we have divided hand thoroughly, so that company telephone also does not contact.
Newly-wed after I no evasion self pass , have told opposite side frankly that this boy thinks always that we are apparently severed, but actually still connected , stimulate me from time to time with language, even starting work have hit me. When I claim self, have not not only deposited , still owe have foreign debt, this boy has also had no patience and confidence again for me , does not meet in April afterwards each other, only the time of half a year, we have divorced.
Afterwards, I when a accidental opportunity has seen him at his domestic entrance, he has not seen me , so, I have again hung telephone group in the past immediately to break. " as decision does not contact , take to rise to put get take off, this is just my genuine personality , can not bother him again. " such I have restrained self.
In one day of October, a strange number arrives to my mobile phone, as soon as I receive , opposite side has no sound , has only hurried respiration, as much as have half minute time, my heart immediately Peng Peng jump fiercely, I know that is him , am glad that being excitement , am expectation, is a kind of appearance the feeling that not come out. " have a how about time? " he asks. " I divorce. " I reply. " want to buy a vehicle to you early, the birthday of this year is bought to you. " he says cautiously.
On November 30, he has really given me vehicle key, but I anyhow glad do not get up. He this is guilty conscience Jiu? Are you compensation? Do you sympathize with still? Want to consider my tear has fallen , right now, I think only that it is a that sound reproduction cries well.
" I can for you do also have only these minor matters, also only do these matters, I at heart can be just glad. You are too many in the past for me to do too many , my few lifetimes are also not over, in the future, you let me many to some of my opportunity, make a little matter for you, I at heart just meeting genuine glad get up . . . . . . " read the writing with these very hot hairs, I have fallen down to tear again.
Will go to his birthday at once , do I give his what gift well? One day I the metropolis that has browsed your a newspaper says everything , burst is odd to think , tells you our story , publishes it , then, I give him as birthday gift, do you decide?
It is just
Talk and do not come , " we are impossible to go again arrive is a, I will not destroy a complete family , and then act as the role of third party. " little bonus says conscientiously. " because of me have promised him wife, while pursuing happiness by oneself, will also consider the feelings of others , should not disregard law and morals more , learn tolerance and understanding , pursuit is detached and free oneself is biggest for me to come for 4 years gains. " little bonus says sincerely.
" may your future will have natural end and result after all? " reporter asks. " make friend do not be all right? Except conjugal love, have no other between men and women? We may throw away love , select to kiss feelings. " little bonus says.
I affirm will not again picture passes is the same, grab sand when is very tight on hand , sand flows continually , is held really naturally, on the contrary, it is more to leave to come , the metropolis that should get gets , only some are material worlds, some are mental worlds, and I value the latter more.
Now, his business not only still has the larger in vehicle trip, field is also more wide , needs person to help him , help his a helping hand. If he is willing that my self is willing to help him with the identity of a friend , but will not set foot in his feelings and family life again absolutely , can only get along as a pure commercial friend harmony, especially foreign market, I believe that I can be all right! So after I prepare , fly to foreign countries , leave this environment , begin own life again.
Today this say everything is the birthday gift that gives
- editor
The feelings of third party is not blest forever by people, their feelings is perhaps sincere , but is prerequisite with injury others. Advantage Ji the way of harmful person not only has Bei social morals, is also inconsistent with the basic principle of human communication. Luckily little bonus Fan Ran wake up to reality , pull back before it is too late, have the courage and pass to say goodbye , this is the embodiment of a kind of braveness, this deserves to be affirmed still.
We satisfy her desire , and do not represent the story and identity that supports her , are opposite, we hope that she can free oneself as soon as possible from it , begins own new life. At the same time, still want to use the third party of her more story warning: Feelings oversteps the bounds , it is just the right way later.
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