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I am divorced by 1997, this in afterwards the time of close

My ex-husband lets to be what and brave , is my fellow villager. After marrying , our feelings is always stabilized very much, after being born , daughter is what and brave to go out to find a job, I grow field and tape daughter at home, help him and the parents of taking care. Flat heart is discussed , I think self should calculate has to go up a good daughter-in-law: It is thrifty to keep house , solicitude offspring, give presents to parents-in-law. Actually, include my old public in have person also only so appraise me.

There is one year , grandmother a person frame ladder, last loft seeks thing. I in since land return , see her is trembling Wei land preparation comes down from ladder. I have not been in time yet sound reminds , it is steady to see a she to sink to step on, soon, will fall. Go again staircase son is surely to have had not enough time , as soon as my eye is closed , has protected grandmother with body, as a result, together with her and ladder, the - old woman who has pounded me layer upon layerly is safe and sound, my bone fracture of lumbar vertebra, have lain at home for more than two months.

What brave often say that he has sought a well old old woman, if is not me, he also can not when outside relieved job hunting makes money. Separate a time, he will return the money gained to me , although has few money, but I when I budget carefully , these money have not only supported a son person, can still a little save.

May 1997 , for the level of primary school on daughter of 3 years, what brave say suddenly that divorce with me, and have no any sign in advance. My first reaction is: He may have got other woman. It may be what and brave to say , he has not done sorry my any matter, not letter I may go to check. " say truth, you are really a good woman, but I am to feel that our life is too flat , have had no any passion. "

This marriage can not be described really to my injury with spoken language, up to now, I have no method yet to understand the what brave opinion at that time: As I no mistake, why will he again leave me? A marriage may be died without known cause actually really? I want to be obstructed , can only blame problem when man do not take the responsibility is above.

Divorce after, the support right of daughter has been sentenced to give is what and brave , one of my person finds a job everywhere, it is bitter to have eaten a lot. Since I am not bad, temper personality is also good, many persons introduce man to me, I 11 refusal. I feel me have already died for man heart, also do not want to step into feelings again mix water inside.

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In September of last year, somebody advises me to say that your age has been big, it is public to had better seek a old as early as possible again, otherwise, old even has no person that may accompany. Before the shadow of marriage gradually when I am at heart weak , have heard this words, it is excited that I have.

It is in then , I have known a divorced man called Li Qiang. In the shop of mobile phone that he opens in relative, help to repair mobile phone , every month has the income of 12 thousand yuan. He pursues me with initiative, after having seen some of surfaces, it is good that we feels. I am one is for the person with very earnest feelings , therefore it is also prudent, I have investigated he 3 months, feel that may contact with with him. He also guarantees to say that he is genuine and sincere for me.

So, in December of last year, I have moved the unit dormitory of Li Qiang, have lived with him when is a. Li Qiang is wasteful man , often follows friend in surface to eat to drink, have no few days in the same month income colored light. I often advise him to spend money to want in a planned way - - former he is a person, so, it is passable to live; May now have got home, should store money in order is urgent. I will even decide detailed plan to him: You may gain 560 yuan every day , spend half to reserve half , may also store the pieces more than 1000 in such every month, , , may he has replied superficially, reality has not been also taken action.

I now when in a wash vehicle shop job hunting, every month just hundreds pieces of money, before have no knowledge Li Qiang, I have still stored the savings of next 2000 yuan. After following Li Qiang together, my savings have spent completely on his the body: As I even put in feelings, have come in , money again calculate what?

The mobile phone of Li Qiang had been stolen , he says him the mobile phone of job hunting shop has just received a ninety percent of new machine son, want 800 yuan, he wants to buy , but on hand, have only 200 pieces. I hear his implication , have given him 600 yuan. My Li Qiang brings to see my mother , he again says: " this matter original should I come to spend money , may my hand goes up have no money , what to be done? " I have again taken 1000 pieces to let him buy thing to my mother.

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In the end of last year, the mother of Li Qiang has died. According to local saying, this year is "New Year", many relative friends can come to condolences. Year ago, he has said with me that this matter lets me go to his home to help to call guest.

Though, it is to let me work , may I am very glad, because of me feel him take advantage of this one opportunity introduces me to household knowledge, this also signifies that our relation is made clear. From big the last day of the lunar year to first 7, I help at his home to do meal , do household duties and reception guest, busy have to be be extremely happy.

In this duration, I have seen brother-in-law and his older sister and the son of Li Qiang. The son of Li Qiang had been sentenced to former wife , gets along this time after meeting me with me very well. His older sister and brother-in-law still pull my hand to say: " Li Qiang can find your so good woman, we have rested assured. "

According to reason, it is also at last smooth to say that I follow the association of Li Qiang, however, destiny seems is teasing me intentionally , present again the embarrassed scene that I have gone through when in front of I - - over year, I say for Li Qiang that want to return the house of former rent to fall , move thing his dormitory goes , he has not made sound at that time , has passed few days, swallow and spit land say for me: " do not check out first son, you move still to live back. "

My heart has cooled to stop, asking him after all is why matter, he says that he has wanted to think , feel us two is not suitable. He unanimously says astonishingly with the saying of what brave same year that I am good woman, his relative advises him to follow me together , however he does not know why, it is to feel that two persons are not suitable.

I cry to ask whether he is playing with my feelings and foundation, do not want to marry with me , he says that is not, but he has not really planed to will soon so marry: In " 2 or 3 years, I will not marry , time of a person is spoilt , I have not prepared yet. " he still says , he also some grudge departure I, because after him, can't also meet my so good woman probably again.

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Though with Li Qiang, the time of love does not

I dare not tell parents the news of parting with Li Qiang, because they just accept this man two months ago , obtain happiness again for me is joyous endlessly, now, why can I let them suffer strike again as me? My not obedient daughter has let them have held too many heart!

Li Qiang says with me that may also contact frequently after parting , we may be still friends. However, I feel that his words are especially hypocritical, I swear , will not also talk about feelings with any a man since then again. Walk out of the shadow of the first feelings, I have spent whole decade, it may wait if my life still has some decades?

Daughter does not know , have heard of from what place that I follow the matter of Li Qiang , call to inquire. At that time, I want to leave the world that this one makes me sad wholeheartedly , also do not want to let self have been kissed feelings trammels. I have installed the telephone of daughter fire wall, if in she long time can't seek me , will surely forget me slowly. After all, her papa remarries , she has had got another mother, and she has talked about boy friend , can have own little home immediately.

I feel , I now is when is parents is living, daughter I need not attend to , may I do not have the heart to let two old mans face grief really. Waiting for them after lifetime, I can also leave at the same time, anyway this world goes up already have no thing with love worth-while me.Please respect authorHttp: / /hexun.com/yin9711